The
New
Me
"Life is so unfair!" ---> A line I said for about a hundred times the past weeks. Why? Simply because I thought all this time life is really being unfair to me. It is, but it thought me a lot. The past weeks I've been away, been skipping school, going from one place to another, wasting money for nothing, doing all the things that I want, being with the people that i felt comfortable with. And a very big question was thrown to me by a lot of people. WHY?? Why are you doing all those things? does it benefit you? My answer, yes and no.. YES, it is because i made a lot of realizations and NO because it made my life worst for a while. My boyfriend (KARL) broke up with me last Aug. 1, 2009 [a very long story.. might be published next time.. :)]with a very unreasonable reason. I seemed to accept it, but as the days pass i never felt the same happiness that I had when he was still mine. I felt like I lost my everything. Got tired w/ everything and ended up being a waste. Then, i met a specific guy. (not to be named.. hahah!) He made me feel that life wasn't really that unfair. He made me realize that things doesn't end up after the break up. He even told me that life is just starting. He made me feel the happiness that i should feel even w/o him, the contentments, after about one or two weeks I made a reflection and after a few days, I realized that what he told me is true. Life is just starting. I change.. For the betterment of my life. And I'm very proud to say that I'm CONTENTED w/ what I have now for this is what God gave me. A life where i can choose between right and wrong, what to do and what not t.. I admit I made a lot of mistakes recently, i need to fill a lot of gaps, i need to do a lot of things to make up with things. But, one thing I know for sure, I'm living my life now not for anybody but for me. :)
