Changed and contented.. :)

The

New

Me

"Life is so unfair!" ---> A line I said for about a hundred times the past weeks. Why? Simply because I thought all this time life is really being unfair to me. It is, but it thought me a lot. The past weeks I've been away, been skipping school, going from one place to another, wasting money for nothing, doing all the things that I want, being with the people that i felt comfortable with. And a very big question was thrown to me by a lot of people. WHY?? Why are you doing all those things? does it benefit you? My answer, yes and no.. YES, it is because i made a lot of realizations and NO because it made my life worst for a while. My boyfriend (KARL) broke up with me last Aug. 1, 2009 [a very long story.. might be published next time.. :)]with a very unreasonable reason. I seemed to accept it, but as the days pass i never felt the same happiness that I had when he was still mine. I felt like I lost my everything. Got tired w/ everything and ended up being a waste. Then, i met a specific guy. (not to be named.. hahah!) He made me feel that life wasn't really that unfair. He made me realize that things doesn't end up after the break up. He even told me that life is just starting. He made me feel the happiness that i should feel even w/o him, the contentments, after about one or two weeks I made a reflection and after a few days, I realized that what he told me is true. Life is just starting. I change.. For the betterment of my life. And I'm very proud to say that I'm CONTENTED w/ what I have now for this is what God gave me. A life where i can choose between right and wrong, what to do and what not t.. I admit I made a lot of mistakes recently, i need to fill a lot of gaps, i need to do a lot of things to make up with things. But, one thing I know for sure, I'm living my life now not for anybody but for me. :)

When your happy don't bother to analyze why.. :)

The missing puzzle piece...

Last July 30, 2009 at around 3:52 pm i saw my phone flashing a light and saw my mom's name on the screen. I wonder why? So, i sent a message asking why? she called again and told me a very unexpected news. "Darating na si Dad, nagtext kaninang 3." mom said. A sudden rush run through my veins, and told myself "Yes! Finally the missing puzzle piece is coming home again."

Well, i know you guys are wondering why do I consider my dad as a missing puzzle pieces, it's simply because for 19 years I never really experienced celebrating a special occasion with a complete family members. You know, the usual mom, dad, brother, sister, baby can never be applied to my history. My dad is a seaman and as we all know a seaman needs to go to different places and leave their family behind. And, I'm one of the family that's left behind.

I know that he's doing it for us, for our future, for our own good. It's just I can't fully understand why can't he be with us on special occasion even once. I know I'm still lucky because there are a lot of teens out there who never met their father, I'm just being emotional. I can't help my self but cry when I hear songs that my dad sings, when i see a complete family going out together for dinner or simply to spend time with each other.

At around 11pm my dad arrived. I went teary eyed when I saw him and when i saw my family walking at the parking lot. My dad holding hands with my mom, my brother pushing my dad's baggage at the cart, my two little sisters running and teasing each other, and me looking at them smiling. At that very moment i told myself "I never experienced celebrating a special occasion with a complete family but I'm thankful that my family is complete."

God really is full of suprises.. :)

A week w/ Mother Nature.. ;) (pics)

more pictures @ my facebook account tkdjinn09@yahoo.com... :)

A week w/ Mother Nature.. ;)

Well, I have been to BICOL last July 18, 2009 by a plane..

I arrived at my grandparents house at around 9 in the morning.. I took a rest for about an hour or two and went off strolling to different places that served as a spot in Bicol that should be visited. And, while having this strolling thing my love for mother nature made me enjoy my vacation more. I first went sight seeing to different places mostly are hills and mountains. Then, i went looking for different trees, fruits, animals, plants, flowers, and even rode a horse, for experience and for a change. HAHAHA!

The first spot that my cousin (ate sarah, who became my tour guide) and I went to is what they called Kawa-Kawa (kawali), it is called kawa-kawa because the shape of it is like a frying pan. The place might sound simple but it's a big NO! Trust me.. You have to walk for almost one and a half hour to reach the top of the mountain, tiring right? :) But, wait there's more. Hahaha! Once you reach the top you will surely say every sweat is worth it.

One of the most distinct sight in Kawa-Kawa is the 14 stations of the cross. The pineapple plantation where you can harvest your own for 15 pesos each. And, once your on the top you will see a mini camp site and training grounds for boy scouts where you can run, play, and do horseback riding for only 10 pesos. Affordable eh? There are also a lot of nipa huts that sereves as your resting grounds when you got all tired and short of breath while reaching the top. Oh, and one more thing there are a lot of trees and different flowers and plants too.

The trip to Kawa-Kawa was surely very tiring for it took us around 3 or more hours to go up the top and down but i assure you it is reallya very satisfying trip. :)

Hope you guys can be with me the next time i visit that place. =)

Experiences.. Learnings.. FUN! :)

I am a student journalist. And, i'm proud to be one.

Yes! You have read it right. The past days are one of the most memorable and meaning ful days for me for i have spent it interviewing a few famous people. :)

I never thought it would be this hard. Well, our class is required to make are own write-ups, news write-ups actually as part of a requirement for prelims on one of our major subjects. We actually need to make 3 news articles (first hand), 3 articles by news writers (cut outs), and an interview with a news writer. Sounds easy right? But, trust me it's not.

You have to go form one place to another to have a good news, the worst part is you have to go from one place to another by commuting. Toxic right? Although it is also fun for there are a lot of places that i have been to for the first time. And the most important thing of all I LEARNED a lot from the different people we met.

There experiences, messages, the things they are telling us, the things they shared are the things that helped me learn and helped me realize things. The things we do are hard yet fullfilling for there are a lot of things that can be learned not just by the book but by the poeple around you and by the experiences you have.

I'm looking forward for more... =)

A Fairy Tale... came true!

Fairy tale? What is this all about? A fantasy? A love story? or simply a dream that might not come true.. Who among us girls never heard of a Fairy Tale? or never tried to read one? or even dream to have one? Well, i guess nobody... All of us have our own little ideas of what fairy tale is.. and as a girl I admit I once have my own dream but never thought it is possible to come true..

** When I was a child I'm fond of reading Fairy tales, listening and watching love stories and the phrase "HAPPILY EVER AFTER" until now that I'm already 19 I still love watching romantic movies and dreaming of having one... When I was still a young girl I once dreamed that the man I would give my whole heart & love will get my hand, kiss it, while he confess how much he loves me... But that dream was long forgotten until yesterday March 30, 2009 around 1:43 am when KARL the man i love, my boyfriend, the one i consider my life, the one I'll grow old with, the one i gave my whole heart & promised to be with until eternity made that dream came back to life and the fairy tale to come true..

--- He asked for my hand and i gave it to him without hesitation... then, he kissed it while saying the magic words: "I LOVE YOU!", after that he guided my hand to his chest and told me to feel his heartbeat... I started to giggle and smile but all of a sudden my smile turned into tears when I slowly remember my dream, my wish that I once have... I felt like I'm a child again.. I ended up crying for I never thought he will do it... So much happiness fills the air, fills my heart, fills both of us... at that very moment i became the PRINCESS and he became thePRINCE in our own fairy tale, our own love story that will have it's own "HAPPILY EVER AFTER"...

GOD made his own way on letting our hearts be filled with so much love... GOD made us a blessing for each other... God made me feel how much he loves me as his daughter by giving me my PRINCE in my own fairy tale...

i love you pillow.. =>