"GOD moved me" =)

(this came from my Blogberry, September 2008, 2 years ago)

I met raj.. the pastor boy! =) this man changed me.. w/o even trying to.. he became God's instrument in leading me to the right path. I accepted Christianity.. and it made me feel more complete.. God was now fully living inside my heart.. I rested everything in God's hands now.. He's always @ my side and I know he will never leave me! God moved me.. God is really a savior..

John 3:16

"For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, that who ever believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life."

Otoko ni watashi wa daisuki! (To the man i LOVE!)

The Love that I feel for YOU

is all true, so true,

one text, a simple message, or a smile from YOU

can wipe away this feeling so blue.

God, has written our love story

although sometimes i'm being corny,

but whenever I tell YOU what I feel

everything that I say is real.

I will always be by your side

and God will always be our guide,

everything in our life will sure be alright

and surely, we can win this fight/

Coz' when two hearts are meant for caring

and lives are meant for sharing,

then we are joined by destiny

for love is stronger far than we.

i don't have the courage, i'm not brave enough.. :(

Honestly, i don't have enough courage to tell you how much i'm in pain knowing that you are not feeling well, knowing that you are encountering a lot of problems, knowing that you are being in your roughest time and i can't help! :(( I don't have enough courage to tell you that i miss you, i miss your simple text messages each day, your messages on my face book account, how we start and end our day by either sending each other text messages or having a chat with random things in our lives, i miss sharing the same prayer before we sleep, i miss YOU.. :( I don't have the courage to show YOU and show all those around you how much i badly wanna fight for the LOVE that i feel for you.. :( Lastly, i don't have the courage to tell you not to go, not to leave because i am afraid, i am afraid that by letting you go i might lose you.. :(

Mahal na Mahal kita, it's been 3 long years and i will still fight and pray for God's continuous guidance for the Love that we share..

Our hearts once shared the same beat, changed for a long time but then find it's way to be back on it's track, and now we are sharing the same beat again. I will never let this beat change or end. Never, for I LOVE YOU!

Sa yong mga mata.. :((

Nung tumingin ako sa kanyang mga mata

mas lalo kong nadama yung lungkot at

sakit na nandoon sa puso niya.

Di ko maiwasang maluha, nung naglaho siyang

parang bula. Di ko rin maiwasang malungkot

sa sakit na kanyang dinulot.

Kelan ko ba kasi ulit madarama

yung sobrang ligayang dinala niya?

Kelan ko ba ulit makikita, mga ngiti kung

dahilan ay siya?

Kaming dalawa'y biglang nagtapos

luha ko'y bigla na lang din bumuhos.

Lahat na lang kasi ng aking makita

dulot ay puro niya alaala.

Akala ko lahat ay tapos na, akal ko

ako ay masaya na pero nung yong

singsing sa king daliri di ko na makita

na alala ko na naman lahat ng nakita

ko sayong mga mata.. :((

To my Father:

Daddy, Dad, Papa, Pa, Tatay, Itay, AMa these are the common words that we use as a name or "pet name" to the man who gave us life, the man who provided us with our needs, the man that we call FATHER.

For 20 years of living in this earth, in this world, in this country and for being the 2ND child in our family I have never really been a good daughter. I answer back, i failed my grades, i disobey, i hate, I'm bad traits that a good daughter can never have. But, despite all this traits i treasure my father, i love, i care and i worry for the only person who work for us, for our family.

Since i was a baby I never really remembered and event, occasion, or special dates that we celebrate with my dad. Never had a birthday party with him, never had a Christmas and new year with him, and never had a wedding anniversary with my mom and dad together. He's a seaman and as we all know that seaman's work for a year or more going from one place to another, and communication wasn't really that stable even though mobile phones are available due to selected roaming areas and signal problems, even if there is Internet free time wasn't enough to go online, chat, and send email so often.

How sad right? but, looking at the bright side i shouldn't be sad for despite all the lack of physical presence he is the father anybody would look and be thankful for, fer he is the father that chose to be sad to make his family happy, chose to work hard, be tired and be weak to give his family their needs and provide for theist future, chose to be far away and alone just to make his family feel more than enough and complete, and lastly chose to be absent in special days just to show his undying love to his wife and kids.

A father I would forever be thankful, A father I love and forever will love. To my father: HAPPY FATHER'S DAY Daddy, I miss you and I Love you. :)

A whisper from up above... :)

June 18, 2010 at 11:30 in the morning, CEU..

I saw a video of streetworx (a dance group form our college ELAMS) and while people are shouting and encouraging those who are passing by to take up an application form a part of me want to get that application form, fill it up, do the audition, and GOD knows what's next. Since the othe rpart of me is undecided i went on walking. While walking i closed my eyes and to my surprise i heard a voice, GOD'S voice. GOD told me "Chie, you dance, yes you do but you are a better actress than a dancer, you are a better writer than a singer but keep in mind that you are better, much better than before" I smiled and whispered "Thank You LORD, i Love you!"

--> And this is how God's love for me changed my undecided mind and feelings because i finally made up my mind that I will continue acting, participate in dancing, write and serve him..ü

"a fairy tale, came true!"

Fairy tale? What is this all about? A fantasy? A love story? or simply a dream that might not come true.. Who among us girls never heard of a Fairy Tale? or never tried to read one? or even dream to have one? Well, i guess nobody… All of us have our own little ideas of what fairy tale is.. and as a girl I admit I once have my own dream but never thought it is possible to come true..

** When I was a child I’m fond of reading Fairy tales, listening and watching love stories and the phrase “HAPPILY EVER AFTER” until now that I’m already 19 I still love watching romantic movies and dreaming of having one… When I was still a young girl I once dreamed that the man I would give my whole heart & love will get my hand, kiss it, while he confess how much he loves me… But that dream was long forgotten until yesterday March 30, 2009 around 1:43 am when KARL the man i love, my boyfriend, the one i consider my life, the one I’ll grow old with, the one i gave my whole heart & promised to be with until eternity made that dream came back to life and the fairy tale to come true..

— He asked for my hand and i gave it to him without hesitation… then, he kissed it while saying the magic words: “I LOVE YOU!”, after that he guided my hand to his chest and told me to feel his heartbeat… I started to giggle and smile but all of a sudden my smile turned into tears when I slowly remember my dream, my wish that I once have… I felt like i’m a child again.. I ended up crying for I never thought he will do it… So much happiness fills the air, fills my heart, fills both of us… at that very moment i became the PRINCESS and he became the PRINCE in our own fairy tale, our own love story that will have it’s own “HAPPILY EVER AFTER“…

GOD made his own way on letting our hearts be filled with so much love… GOD made us a blessing for each other… God made me feel how much he loves me as his daughter by giving me my PRINCE in My own fairy tale…

i love you pillow.. =>

*originally posted: Monday, March 30th, 2009 at 9:44 pm

"it's still her"

i’m afraid that I might loose youYes it’s true,
I know im just a friend
I know this might end…

But have I ever told you
That every little thing you do,
Brings smile to my face
And felt like your warm embrace…

I know you want her
I know you really miss her,
I even know you need her
And you still love her…

And I know I can’t be her
And I can never be in her place,
I can’t make you love me
Or even need me.

All I want now
Is for you to keep in mind,
That what ever happens
I’ll still be at your side…

*originally posted: Thursday, September 4th, 2008 at 1:08 am

"desparity & reality"

I once thought that we had the right love at the wrong time
But as time passes by I suddenly realized,
That we had the right time but never had the right love
Or even had the right love and right time but never been the right US.

When we are together I felt like this wont last until forever
When he looks at me fantasy turns out to be reality
When I’m at his side disparity fades slowly,
Times stop, heart beat, and love is in the air.

But when reality struck me
I again realized that every little thing
Was just a fantasy
And it can never be a reality.

I’m desperate for your love,
Desperate for your warm embrace,
Desperate to hear your voice and say I LOVE YOU
And mean it!

You owned my heart now
It’s in your hands
But why are you just holding it?
Why are you keeping it you pocket?
Why not put it beside your heart?
Why not let my love for you, be your love for me too?

I don’t know how to end this poem
I don’t even know why I even made this,
All I know is I’m desperately waiting for you love
Or let me say desperately waiting for a fantasy to be a reality..

*originally posted: Thursday, September 4th, 2008 at 1:07 am

"aishiteru, sayonnara!"

I'm currently sitting on the floor thinking of what are the possible things that i can write, but almost an hour past and there’s really nothing that comes in to my mind.

But ei, wait! Why am i weeping? Why are there tears rolling down my face? I guess it’s because I'm hurt, I'm feeling pain, I'm in agony, I'm waiting for a long time to settle things for the two of us to talk. i thought this would help, this talking would help, but I'm wrong it just made things worst.

At first, i thought we had the right love at the wrong time but then is it really the right love? or, it’s the right time but never been the right love? I tried my best to work things out, to patch things up, but this PRIDE that he has kills and tore everything apart.

Why do we have to love a person who can’t love us back? Why do we have to cry and get hurt? Is it really because we have to learn? Learn what? Learn to surrender and never stood up again when we stumble and fall? Until when do we have to hold on? Until when do we have to get hurt?

Yes! I am a strong person, but for how long will I be strong? Until when do I have to hold on? Do I really have to give everything up? But, what if changes happen? Can i turn back time? I guess I really have to face the truth and the sad goodbye…

*originally posted: Monday, July 21st, 2008 at 10:40 am

"Forget Him"

Forget his name

Forget his face

Forget his kiss

and his warm embrace.

Forget the love that you once knew

remeber he has someone new.

Forget him when they play your song

remember when you cried all night long.

Forget how close you once where

remeber he has chosen her.

Forget how you memorized his walk

Forget the way he used to talk

Forget the things he used to say

remember he has gone away.

Forget his laugh and his grin

Forget the dimples on his chin

Forget the way he hold you tight

remember he’s with her tonight.

Forget the time that went so fast

Forget the love that moved its past

Forget he said he’d leave you never

remember he has gone forever.

*originally posted: Sunday, June 29th, 2008 at 1:00 am

"Why & When"

Why do you have to bring smile on my face,

when now im forwning?

Why did you promise that you’ll stay,

when now you’re gone?

Why do i have to dream about you,

when im not sleeping?

Why do i have to run,

when i’m lame?

Why do i have to cry

when my eyes dried up?

Why do i have to shout your name,

when i’m mute?

Why do i have to listen to our love songs,

when im already deaf?

Why do i have to fly,

when there are no wings?

Why do i have to write this down,

when i really dont know what im feeling?

Why do i have to meet you,

when i know its not the right time?

Why do everything has to happen?

is it really feelings that keeps hurting me,

or its the fact that you can never really be mine?

*originally posted: Sunday, June 29th, 2008 at 12:52 am

"Why?"

I’ve always been so lonely

I’ve always been blue,

I’m giving up slowly

It’s impossible to be true.

I know i started liking you

Yes! i know i do,

and as time passes by

im starting to ask myself, "why?"

You atart bringing smile on my face

in every possible way,

you make my day complete

you make my heart beat.

And now im walking down on tha aisle

still asking this question, "why"?

this question that lingers in my mind

with answers that are hard for me to find.

So, please answer me

and make me see,

if you do like me

or everything is just a fantasy!

*originally posted: Sunday, June 29th, 2008 at 12:22 am

oLd stUffs..

as i was surfing the net i finally got this urged to open my friendster account which i have abandoned for almost a year or more.. then i saw my previous blogs,, it's funny because all the poems i tried to composed for a guy whom as far as i can remember broke my heart before is there and since i already got over him super over him i'm going to post the poems here and try to add some more.. haha..

aside form that i found a lot of stuffs there like pictures, edited pictures, videos, old friends conversations and comments.. reminiscing the past is really nice and it's makes me smile or laugh but then we can never really deny the fact that there are also a lot of bad and sad times that we will reminisce from our past.

oh well,, so much for the talking..
(it's 5 am and i'm still up)

한국어 배우기 (Learning Korean)

Ok! #$&%* first things first what is a Korean alphabet? Hangeul or Hangul is what Koreans called those alphabets. Chinese writing is known in Korea for 2,000 years but by 5th century of AD Koreans started to write using the so called Classical Chinese and later revised it to there own alphabet now known as Hangeul / Hangul.

Most Americans or foreign people think that Korean has thousands of characters like Chinese, but it actually has a very simple and logical alphabet. The alphabet was invented in 1443 during the reign of the Great King Sejong. There are 14 basic consonants and 10 basic vowels. Letters that have similar sounds also have similar shapes, so it is easy to learn.

Problem (문제|) : -->> Ok so much for the information it's just that i got very interested in learning, writing and hopefully reading and speaking Korean Language but the problem is i am really having a hard time because am more familiarized with Japanese and now it's all mixed-up.. So,, i thinking on mastering both languages but it can not be possible if i'll do it at the same time.

Solution (해결) : -->> I searched guides on writing Hangeul on the net copied it, printed it out and try to read and read and read.. after reading i started to write down sample words analyze and study it and after 2 days i started writing..

What's the sense on all of this? Well, i just wanted to say and share that learning something and different is hard really but if your in to it and there's passion nothing is impossible. Like me, i know how to read and write basic Hangeul i can even speak basic Korean Language all i need to do is practice until everything is mastered..

" Don't stop when you feel like giving up, because that is the best time to try and try until you achieve it" ("때, 그 때문에 가장 좋은 시간이 시도하고 당신이 그것을 달성할 때까지 포기하려고하면 기분이 멈추지 마라")

it's been 6 months!

Oh my! it's been 6 months since the last time i posted something on my blog.. well,, i don't really have anything to post for now.. i will just post some pictures that i took the past months and this pictures are the pics that i love the most..ü